Wednesday, November 25, 2009

We're doing better

Jer and I are doing just fine, it seemed for a while that things had gotten thrown up in the air and were suddenly less certain than they had been in previous weeks. I sincerely believe that it was just a time when we had to look at our own faith and see where we need to work on strengthening our relationship with the Lord. Even though I was wigging out, I still felt in my heart that things were going to be fine, and I woke up with a song in my heart and then a similar one on the radio in the car on the way to work. The Gist? Peace Be Still and know that I am God, and I've got this.
Only after I heard that in my heart and believed it, did the information come. I don't do well without information. Beth Moore wrote in her "Esther" study that we feel most out of control when we are high on emotion and low on information. I think she was in my head when she wrote that.

I had a big old ugly cry last night. And Jer and I talked about our frustration. Jer mentioned as I left for work this morning that he felt like things would be better today. Becky called me while I was with a patient, and I called her back on my break, and I was reassured by everything she said. Praise God for a wonderful caseworker.

I am so thankful that this year I have someone to look forward to.

Of course this was all happening while I was dealing with what to do with my privacy settings. I am not going private, but I have decided that I'm not allowing comments by people who don't have a Blogger account. (This sucks because my pal Jen C doesn't have a blog here. But we're pals on Facebook. If anyone else would like to be facebook buddies, please leave a comment with your name, or email address and I'll friend you. I won't post your comment :D.)

I also worked up the gumption to post a response to that webzine owner who posted my blog on their site. I let them know that I am a kind person who would never dismiss their feelings toward their personal adoption experience, and that I hoped that they would find blessings from God and happiness. I also extended my prayers to "him" and to the people he has posted on "his" site.

While I will not accept or apply his opinion on my blog, I do believe he's entitled to it.

Happy Thanksgiving!



Melba said...

So glad you are doing better! I keep watching that ticker on your page get smaller and exciting!

You are in my thoughts and prayers, Girl...happy Thanksgiving to you too!


Rachel said...

OH - they got me on that webzine, too. That's why I was so upset a few weeks ago.

After much prayer, (for me AND for them) I realized that I will never meet them and that their negative experiences will not define my adoption experience. I would love to know how you contacted them - they didn't leave a comment on my blog.

And, if it isn't too much, I'd love to read your response. YOu can email me - OR NOT - your choice :)

I'm glad you are much better today. Hang in there - God IS in control and He DOES have a plan!!

Happy Thanksgiving Day!!!

TXMom2B said...

I no longer allow anonymous comments, either, after a rude message had me all upset. I, too, believe that people have the right to their opinions. I want them to be accountable for them, though, and only express the thoughts that they are willing to claim by name. Only then will I take the emotional energy to deal with them. You're in a very stressful situation right now, and don't need the extra stress of rude commenters!

H said...

I had the EXACT same message from the Lord this week...Be still and know that I am God. In all of the craziness of what this adoption world brings, THANK GOD we can KNOW that He's got this! I'm praying for you every day, and all of us hopefully-soon-to-be mommies.

Jamie said...

happy thanksgiving! so excited with you now that it was a happy day for you both. :)