And then, 4:00 Thursday came and she'd not called. It's amazing how fast the cookie can crumble. The story may not end here, there may be much more. But for now, we're completely uncertain.
I hope with all of my heart that she calls. I gave permission for her to call my cell directly if she'd rather not go through a conference call. I thought it might make her feel more comfortable, but so far she's not gotten back in touch with her counsellor. The counsellor is happy to give her the number should she want it though.
So if by chance you're reading this K. We're not mad, we know how hard this must be for you. We're here for you, regardless of what happens with little V. A. We do want to be her parents, we would be honored to be her parents. And we would be even more honored if you would trust us with your heart as well. We want to love you too. It doesn't have to stop here. It can go on, we can be a different kind of family. All you have to do is give us a chance. Together we can do anything, separately we are only two families in need. Reach out. For the sake of your family just call Erin and ask for my number. There is a way to do this that can change the world. Let's stand Open Adoption on it's ear and give hope to people who don't believe it can work. You, Jer and me, together.
I pray that K and her children are safe. I pray they are warm and secure, that they are being taken care of. That they are not alone. Please Dear Lord, show us a way through this world where there is no light in the tunnel of fear. Don't let this fear stand between two women who could do so much together. Be a lamp unto our feet and help us find a way to one another. Help K. trust her gut when it told her to choose Jeremiah and Kelley. Help her overcome her fears and come back to Bethany. If not for adoption, for support. We love her.
Help me to accept what may not be possible.